I’ve not felt this lonely since I left Sweden to move across the sea to be with the man I love.. 9 years ago.
I remember the day I got here vividly. It was actually sunny that day in May 2007. It was lovely for the first two weeks. Then it stated raining… For 3 months straight. I wanted to go back home to Sweden. I cried so much because we usually had nice summers. I wasn’t used to the wet wet rain over here.. (I really can’t explain the wet rain you guys have here.. I know all rain is wet, but this is something else.)
I didn’t go back home… I stuck through it all. It’s not been easy living here. Not only because my entire family were back in Sweden, but I didn’t feel I belonged here.
From day one I’ve felt the hatred against migrants like myself. Not from everyone, of course not, but there are quite a lot of them.
When I ask people why do you dislike them so much, most answer by saying something like “they take our benefits/jobs etc”… I then say, but you’re on benefits and the answer is usually “I’m English it’s okay for me,it’s my right”… Okay then….
I’ve met so many people who blame the immigrants for the changes in benefits.. When it’s their own greedy, lazy attitude that caused it in the first place. I’ve never once abused the system. I never once signed on. I had a job 2 weeks from moving over here. I brought enough money to ensure I wouldn’t have to rely on the government.
And why would I come to England to claim benefits when I’ve lived all my life in Sweden where life was pretty good?
I came from Sweden not to take your jobs or your benefits. I came for love.. I met the love of my life and he didn’t want to leave England at that time..
I could go on forever about this..
Yesterday morning when Adam woke me up and said “We’ve left the EU” my heart sank.. I cried for hours before I went to work.
All over social media people are gloating how they’re taking back their country. It was never anyone else’s… You’re saying pack your bags and good bye, you’re not welcome anymore…
I deleted quite a few so called friends off Facebook and other social media after that..
I feel scared for the future. My future, my other half’s and my daughters. I wanted her to have the choice to travel and see what I’ve seen. Give her a chance to live and love wherever she wants. I’m not saying that won’t be possible.. We don’t know what this means.. I’m just writing because I haven’t got anyone to speak to about this right now.. I feel extremely lonely right about now..